MLK

"If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward." — Martin Luther King Jr

It has been a month since my brother passed away. He comes to my mind everyday. I didn't see him often or think about as much as I do now or when he was sick.
I think about the missed opportunities, I think about the memories I did get to make. I think about all the things that could of been. It also makes me wonder & worry about my parents. It's hard to be in the position I am. I HAVE to take care of my kids, which means I HAVE to work & as the sole provider I have to work a lot...
Now I realize I don't HAVE to go to the gym, or train as hard as I do BUT I NEED to!! It has become the means for me to release all the stress, worry, emotions I carry with me & I leave feeling better each time. I only wish there was some way to harness this and give it to my parents...

I can't imagine what they are dealing with emotionally let alone still having to sort through hospital bills, life insuranse & whatever else. I wish I had the time to help (although I doubt they would let me cause they don't wanna put more on my plate)
This past week I lost some of my edge. I think I know the hard core time is coming. F week weight loss challenge, tri-training, running club...
I been going a little easier on myself. Today however I hit up 5:30 am boot camp, then 8a spin class....OH YEAH!!!
I felt like maybe I have a little cold soming on & almost stayed in bed but once I got through it all I was very happy & proud!!!